Wednesday, March 23, 2011 Dear Bloggie, I'm back again! Feels so long since I last blogged. :x Anyway, I am so going to save up for Canon 600D. This is my aim! By the end of this year!!!! *wink* Today, I went to school to check my results and also to change my password. :D That's like funny right? Go all the way to school just to change password... Can't even check my results. But After going to school to change my password, I can check results already. :X My results aren't fantastic but I guess, I made some improvements. I must try harder in Year2. (: P.S. I just can't get enough of you. Love, PAMELA :D blogged @ 10:11 PM Thursday, March 17, 2011 Dear Bloggie, You know, so many natural disasters have been happening recently... Just looking at the number of natural disasters happening this year in these 3 months, scares me. "The frequency and closeness of these natural disasters tell us that the earth is indeed going through "birth pains". We've had many earthquakes and other disasters in 2010, and 2011 doesn't look much better so far! " January January 1 - Earthquake magnitude 6.9 Argentina- January 1 - Earthquake magnitude 5.2 - Southern XinJiang, China January 2 - Earthquake 7.1 magnitude Chile January 2 - More Than 1,000 Dead Birds Fall From Sky in Arkansas January 2 - Dead fish cover 20-mile section of Arkansas River January 3 - Uganda yellow fever outbreak kills more than 40 January 3 - Earthquake Near Japan Triggers Tsunami Warning January 3 - Powerful earthquake hits south-east Iran January 3 - Earthquake 7.0 magnitude hits northern Argentina January 3 - Hundreds of dead blackbirds found in Louisiana January 3 - 10,000s of Birds found dead in Manitoba January 3 - Thousands of Birds fall from the sky in South America January 3 - Major Flood in Rockhampto,Australia January 4 - Dead Birds Found In Kentucky January 4 - 100 tons of dead fish wash up on Brazil's shores January 5 - Hundreds of dead birds found in East Texas January 5 - Dead birds in Sweden, millions of dead fish in Maryland, Brazil and New Zealand January 5 - Shift of Earth's magnetic north pole affects Tampa airport January 6 - 40,000 crabs found dead on England beaches January 6 - Heavy floods leave at least 35 dead in Brazil January 12 - Earthquake 4.5 magnitude in California- January 12 - Huge Waves Destroy Homes in E. Indonesia February February 4 - Thousands of marine animals found dead in MATO GROSSO DO SUL/AMAZON Region February 21 - Magnitude 6.3 earthquake- SOUTH ISLAND OF NEW ZEALAND February - Thousands of dead fishes have washed up at Sebastian Inlet State Park Florida March March 7 - Millions of small fish including anchovies, sardines and mackerel were found dead at King Harbour area at Redondo Beach, California- March 11 - Magnitude 8.9 earthquake and tsunami devastating Japan So many lives have been lost, be it humans or animals. In 3 months so many things have happened. What are we doing? What have we been doing? In the bible, Isaiah 13:13 "Therefore I will shake the heavens, and the earth shall remove out of her place, in the wrath of the LORD of hosts, and in the day of his fierce anger." Psalms 46:2 "Therefore we will not fear, though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea.." Let's all just pray that we are all mentally and physically prepared for His coming. Love, PAMELA :D blogged @ 10:58 AM Wednesday, March 9, 2011 Dear Bloggie, MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY!!! I was at the bank just now, and I realised how much money I have spent over the past few months. And most my money had been spent on people and food. Maybe I should just start spending like only $5 a day since my allowance is $10 a day. :x Talking about allowance, I have a junior who is only like Sec 2 this year, her daily allowance is like $100!!! That's like 10 times more than my daily allowance... That makes up $3,000 a month. Even my friend (21 this year) who came to Singapore to study, receives only $1,000 a month (inclusive of transport, meals, bills, and miscellaneous and of course $100-$200 for savings). What is this??!! I think it will take me another year before I can get my new camera. :/ I keep blessing people even though I don't have enough for myself and I got scolding for being too generous. :x And people often say it doesn't pay to be kind. :x I will be blessed too right? *wink wink* At times people say wanna share cost for someone's gift with me but in the end, I NEVER got any money back. Sigh. Am I too nice? I got scolding for randomly buying gifts for people. Hah. I guess that's the weak side of me. :/ Oh well... Nvm, I am going to be positive. :D I will save money. :D Alright enough of ranting. (I wish money drop from the sky. xD) Love, PAMELA :D blogged @ 2:44 PM Thursday, March 3, 2011 Dear Bloggie, I don't like to cry. But recently, I am so weak. I seemed to not be able to handle my emotions. I am so fragile recently. Is it becasue I have pretended to be strong all these while and finally I cannot be strong anymore? I pretended that nothing can defeat me but today, I realised how weak I am, to be defeated so easily by my own emotions. That, perhaps is the reason why I am so selfish with him, that I just wished he's here with me even if he's busy. I suck. I can't control my tears anymore. the feeling suck when you receive the news from the one you love, "I'm sorry to tell you this. But, you and XXX didn't get into the job, but I got selected." Suddenly my mind went, "oh okay...." I mean I should be happy or him, butI just can't bring myself to be happy. I'm definitely not crying because I didn't get the job. It's not the first time after all. So, why am I crying? I thought I would be fine, no, I'm not. I just have too many things on my mind. I can't focus anymore..... I feel tired... I should learn I should learn. Learn what? To b strong? I can't, now. I just can't. I have no idea what's got into me. To think of it, if I can't handle setbacks then what? I am a failure all my life? Yes, I have been a very negative person. I have tried for many years that I would be a positive person but after so many years of trying, I thought in recent years there was improvements. Finally I realised, no, I didn't. I'm still as weak as ever.... I wanna go out for a walk... I want a hug.... Tears keep flowing down my cheeks... Why? I don't understand... God, speak to me. SHow me my rainbow again.. It's after rain right? May I have a clear rainbow please? I feel like going to East Coast Park, take a stroll, listen to the breeze and sounds of the waves. I want my hug now, not as soon as you get to see me. Like I said before, if I die today and you come only 1 week later, isn't it a bit late? I'm stubborn but I have my things to care about. I stopped crying but I think it will come again. I just wished you have wings and fly here immediately. Love, PAMELA :D blogged @ 5:23 PM