*Own Laptop
*MOVIES!
*Quiet Time with God
*People around me to be happy(:
*new waterbottle
*CRUMPLER sling bag
*CANON IXUS 85IS
*PHILOSOPHY Back pack
*new wallet
*new backpack
*new shoes
*new phone
*slim down
*True Love
Ok, it's been pretty long since I last had a good laugh. I had, today. Hui Yi and I just kept laughing and laughing. During Chemistry lesson and Social Studies lesson. Calvin kept making us laugh.
During Chemistry, Mrs Tay was just going through Set D with us. #1 She was telling us about putting the burning splinter into the test tube and it will produce a 'pop' sound. Calvin started his "pop pop pop pop~" rap. So irritating! #2 Mrs Tay was asking us which homologous series does a certain structure belongs to. Calvin answered,"HAPPY TREE FRIENDS!" out of a sudden. So we started laughing our heads off lah.
I forgot what made us laugh so much during Social Studies. But it just made us laugh like crazy during the lesson. Must be from Jin Wei's group again. Haha. Ok, so after all the laughing, some idiot starts yacking and yacking and yacking non stop. You could only hear his voice. 'Cos he was just talking to himself. -.- He kept talking to people about game, game and game. And everything that comes out of his mouth, are just vulgarities. And he don't have an idea of his own lah. Follow whatever people say. -.- In fact, he didn't only talk for the moment. For the day, he can talk and talk and talk non stop. And he don't do anything besides opening his mouth and scold vulgarities. -.- So CIVILISED. *claps~*
Hur. Ok lah. Too many words already. Byee :D
Oh yes, ALL THE BEST MRS TAN AI LIN! :D Today is our Discipline Mistress, Mrs Tan Ai Lin's last day in BNSS. She have been teaching in Bedok North for many many years. She's my role model. I like her. In fact, I love many teachers in my school. Maybe because I have never got any disciplinary problems. Therefore, I don't need to see her. Though she have never taught me before, I know she's a very nice teacher cum DM. Though strict with us, she never fails to remind us of many many things, such as before the holidays, she will remind us not to play with hair colours, not to get into trouble outside etc. Though strict with us, she still deserve our respect. Though many people who got into disciplinary cases dislike her, she still stay unshakable, rooted. Maybe because she have seen too many of these cases. (: She's strict, and firm. Nobody dares to disobey her. I respect her with all my heart. And I'm thankful for such a great Discipline Mistress. :D
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Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Damn the bus this morning. I merely went to the coffeeshop to pass Carmen my emergency charger and I missed the bus. I thought there was going to have another bus in like a few minutes. So, I was supposed to take he 0645 bus. I saw a 0643 bus went pass me so I thought, "its either the previous bus which came late or the bus I was going to take, came early.." The next bus came at 0652. WOW. How early. I waited 10 minutes for a bus. -.-
Anyway, I only reached Bedok Interchange at 0710. Which means I will definitely be late. And true enough, I was late for school. -.- The last time I was late for school was in 2005, when I was still in Sec1. I was late twice in Sec1 and wasn't late again. Until today. Because of that damn bus. I saw two 87 passed by me when I was in 225. -.-
I think I was quite kuku today. I didn't know where to go. And I didn't know latecomers have to queue up to get their lateslips as well as get names recorded. And please, some people got away as 1st timer whereas actually they were 2nd/3rd timers. They cheated just becaue they don't wanna get detention. -.-
Diao. I accidentally washed my handphone just now. -.- *wonders if today is Friday the 13th. No what.It's Wednesday the 30th!*Omg. I'm so suay. I was just in the toilet and placed my phone in the sink. I actually forgot that I have my phone in the sink and I opened the tap to wash my hands. -.- How smart. Ok lah. Enough of ranting. BYEE. :D
I just want you to be happy.
blogged @ 9:09 PM
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
School was fine today. I think my mission failed again. ARGH. Anyway, I had a very interesting conversation with Hui Yi when we were on our way home. She told me about her aunt telling her to becareful of birds as we don't know if the bird flew to Singapore from some Bird flu country.
Then I said, "Oh, then they will AHHH-CHOO and you get Bird flu right?" So Hui Yi was like, "No lor, it will only 'niao niao niao~~' only lor." My first reaction was to laugh out loud. Haha. I asked her, "What about mad cow disease? Do they 'mooo mooo mooo~~' ??" Her reply was, "No lor. They will 'niu niu niu~~' HAHA.
And we were like talking about how fishes and prawns laugh. Damn funny lah. So interesting.
Praise the Lord! I didn't fall asleep in class today!! :DD
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I'm sorry, ____. I didn't mean to view it. I just happened to pass by. I didn't intend to let you know that I found it. But someone told you that I knew it. -.- Love, Pamela
DON'T ASK ME WHO IS THIS FOR.
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Monday, July 28, 2008
School was fine. Some people don't know how to be remorseful. They chased my English Teacher out of the class today. I bet she sides them. I scolded that guy. I detest him. All he know is to spout vulgarities and vulgarities and vulgarities. Not only him but the WHOLE of that group. Make me damn upset. Mood today was not very pleasant. I only enjoyed Chinese lesson today.
I hate my class. More and more each day. Why on Earth am I in this f-ing class? Maybe in the beginning if I had chosen Geog class, I would be so much happier. I would rather be in a class which is motivated to study. My class suck. The only thing I can do now is to study hard, get good results and squeeze myself into the same class with Shi Hui they all. I don't think other classes have such problems. 4E is doing well, so as 4G. They are so attentive in class and that's really what makes me envious. At least their Chemistry teacher don't have to come in to class get so pissed off by the class.
My Chemistry teacher have to come in to class every lesson saying this, "There's no teacher in the class, Pamela. Don't bother to greet me. There's no teacher in the class.", "There are some elements in the class who are always disrupting the class. How I wish I can just have a small of students to teach.", "I don't have to be here. Why am I working so hard for that $2?", "4G is so much better." That's how pathetic my class is.
Chase every teacher out again and you don't have to study anymore. You have never spare a thought for others. I admit my mistake. Seriously. I know I'm in the wrong because of scolding you people. And I know I'm in no position to do this. I'm in no position to do anything. I apologise. I'm still trying to change my harsh behaviour. I shouldn't let all these spoil my mood for the day.
Anyway. Enough of those unhappiness. I've decided to draw up a timetable everyday. I almost completed today's plan. But I didn't do skipping today so, MISSION FAILED! ): Nvm, I shall try again tomorrow! :D JIA YOU PAM! :DDDD
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Sunday, July 27, 2008
I'm from the Girls' Brigade. And I'm proud to be a Brigader. I'm proud of my uniform. I'm proud of the Brigaders I've made throughout this four years in BNSS. I'm proud of my juniors, my seniors, my officers, the affiliated church and everything. We have always been looked down upon in my school.
#1 Our uniform #2 Our small number of people #3 We are not string enough #4 We are new in this school #5 GB? Is it Gun Bound?
People do not give us the respect we need. We are not respected by other uniform group members as well as the people in our school. Other CCAs do not have such problems. They do not have people cutting across their contingents. They are good in disciplining their own cadets, I'm not. People think that our uniform is disgusting. But I'm still PROUD to wear mine. Everyone just complain and complain about our uniform. I have friends who criticise our uniforms.
#1 Your uniform looks like a techinician #2 Your uniform looks like a nurse #3 Your cap looks like a ji gong's cap #4 You're the only uniform group who cannot take down your caps even when indoors.
We don't disrespect other UG members but why did they have to do this to us? It's really hurting to see others' comments saying that our uniform is disgusting. Say it in my face.
I love GB. I love GB uniform. I love my fellow Brigaders. I love my GB Company. I love my juniors, my seniors, Ms Ho and of course my officers.
And all these are not going to change. Period.
blogged @ 10:41 PM
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Went to school this morning for Math remedial. After that went home with Sophia. I went for supposedly cell in the afternoon. But cell was cancelled because Mei Lian is ill. Went for prayer meeting instead. Eric shou le! :D Anyway, so, service was fine.
He looks slant... =/
blogged @ 11:09 PM
Thursday, July 24, 2008
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY CARMEN TAN! :D
I love you, sis! :D
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Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Omg. Perfect Cut last 3 episodes already leh!! Wahlao. So fast. I want cry already lah. Left 2 episodes only lor. Sky asked Xiao Li to go Singapore Flyer. Then Sky was like waiting for her there already. In the end, Xiao Li decided not to turn up because she felt that she wasn't good enough for Sky.
And remembered Bobby Low took over Alex Tan's operation on Xin Xin because he could not see? Bobby Low became famous overnight and became the first Asian Doctor in Feiya Magazine. I knew it from the start Bobby Low had designs on Kelly. Thus, Kelly "confronted" him and was very disappointed with him.
Kelly hired a private nurse to take care of Alex Tan. The private nurse is namd Jac. She have a husband and 2 kids? Despite her birthmark on her face, her husband and kids still love her for who she is and not judging her by her physical appearance.
Sometimes, we tend to judge someone via their physical appearance and we didn't know that words that come out from our mouths might have hurt them deeply. But because the husband, Tim, loves his wife so much that he saw Jac as the best gift from Heaven. And see her with his heart and not his eyes. Jac said that Tim made her understand that not everyone judge by one's physical appearance. It's Jac's inner beauty that attracted Tim. And they are happy.
You may be very beautiful on the outside, but you can also be very evil in the inside. You may not be very beautiful on the outside, but you can also be very attractive in the inside. I guess, most people, by human nature, they will still see others' physical appearance. When they see someone a bit bigger in size, they start making fun of him/her. Well, though saying that he/she is used to others' "compliments", he/she in the inside, is still hurt. Deeply. Maybe that's what I look for in a guy. Maybe someone like Sky, but I don't need him to be good looking, have a very fit body. I just need him to love me for who I am in me, just like God and my best friends.
However, I will still try to motivate myself to do exercise. Hah. Ok lah. It's getting lengthy already. Shall end here today. Look forward to tmr's episode. And I shall prepare tissue. :D
Sometimes I really crave for that kinda feeling. I know I'm very naive. But, I just can't stop myself from thinking. I will be wondering when will it be my turn? I shouldn't even be thinking about this now. Well, I was watching Perfect Cut and it's... Ouch. Soooooo sweeeeeeeet~!!!!! I watch the show until I'm so excited!!!
Nvm, I'm just a bit mad. Yes, just abit. xD
Anyway.. I'm trying very very hard to change. My mindset. Everything. But. Ouch. Nvm.. I'm going back to tvee. :D Byeee!
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY VANESSA YEO! :DD
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY WEI LI! :DD
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Monday, July 21, 2008
Today's a very significant day - Racial Harmony Day. Yah, ethnic costume and stuff. Nth very special happoened today. Took a few photos and had assembly. I didn't charge my camera so had to limit the photos I take. Ahh. But It's okay. I took quite a few. (:
OMG. SOOOO SWEEEEEEET! I also want. =/ Anyway. I was watching A perfect Cut. Ouch. So sweet.... Why things that happen on tvee never really happen in real life ah? Or rather to me. Bleah. Ok lah. I really have nothing to blog about. Shall end here. (:
Today, in fact yesterday, was a nice day. I bought my flats. Went for movie with Zone after service. Invited Jaena. We watched The Dark Knights. So long winded! Gosh. I almost fell asleep. Oops.
Anyway. Went 85 with Eddie ah gong, Shu Xiang ah ma, Mei Lian and Hui Yi. And got scolded becos we bought Sugar Cane from another store in to their TERRITORY. SO dumb lah. I mean of course I'll ratehr order a drink from a store which serves good, fresh Sugar Cane than one that adds syrup in it. So the aunty was like, staring at us and said, "My store don't have sugar cane meh. Why must order already then cancelled and go other store and buy?" Like, yes, we ordered but, we cancelled it before they make the drink. And we did order from them a can of Pokka green tea ok. So unreasonable. Typical.
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Saturday, July 19, 2008
If one day, I learn how to let go, It's not because I've forgotten you. But because I love you too much.
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Friday, July 18, 2008
Oh., my kitchen is flooded again. -.- It's not that we didn't turn off the tap but well, the water kept dripping and it caused the basin to overflow. I hate it when it floods. Argh.
I reached home at 2240hrs just now. And I came home to watch the remaining of A Perfect Cut. This show is pretty meaningful. I got to learn pretty much from this show. I'm so gonna watch the next episode because Sky [Julian Hee] will ask Xiao Li [Michelle Tay] to be his girlfriend. Soooo sweet. * I wish I will experience the same thing. Haha. * Oh, Sky will say this to Xiao Li, "Be my girlfriend ok? Let me protect you." SOOOOO SWEEEET. Ouch. I fee the happiness Xiao Li will be having... I mean I can imagine. Hehe.
Sometimes I'll just be smiling to myself at the thought of holding his hand. I wonder when I will get a chance to hold his hand again. 06 August 2006. The first and maybe the last time I held his hand. OMG. I must be crazy. Anyway, I miss him lah. I don't know but the only thing I'm afraid of, is the return of the feelings I once had for him. So unreal. I can't let it come back. Because I don't want to drift away from him again. That's how important he is to me. Ok lah enough of these. I'm tired. Ending.... Byeee. :D
blogged @ 11:33 PM
Thursday, July 17, 2008
I was at my Chemistry remedial yesterday when I received this msg from my friend, "Hey M______E say you ate Japan slimming pills."
Like can you believe it? If I ate slimming pills, why am I still so fat? And why on earth will I still eat so much? Yah, maybe ou'll think that because I eat pills that's why I'm not afraid to eat alot. I know. You used to be quite plump and had since turned into a fine lady.
That doesn't mean you can put words into my mouth and tell others I TOLD you I took pills. You even told my friend that YOU know alot of things she do not know. Well, tell me, what do you know? You are not my close friend why would I tell you my secrets? The people I will tell my problems to, will definitely not be you. Luckily I didn't. If I had told you all my problems, maybe the whole of your school would have known who on Earth is PAMELA YEO and what problems she's facing already.
You said I ate slimming pills, maybe you're just trying to hint let others that you ate slimming pills but you told others how you slimmed down, by eating healthily and to do more exercise. WOW. How bout yourself? Did you eat slimming pills? Yea, I don't have to bother about how you tell others about me. But I never thought you would be a hypocrite. Thanks, girl.
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY CLARENCE! :D
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Monday, July 14, 2008
Ok, I'm gonna make this quick. I promised Mdm Nurmah I'll hand in my SS tmr. Went Party World KTV at Orchard with E242 yesterday. Considered as cell outing. It was a great, enjoyable day. I reached home at 2135hrs and watched Incredible Tales at 10. Uploaded photos and sent to all the emails. And I just realised I lost 40++ pictures. AHHHHHH. T.T Oh yah. Mei Lian gave me a new waterbottle yesterday. Soo sweet of her. She said that because my nalgene bottle is very old already so she bought me a new Nike bottle. Thank you, Mei Lian!! :D
It's GB day today! I'm on my uniform today. It had been so long since the last time I wore my Uniform. I wasn't really supposed to be in the contingent but they lack of people as some of them didn't turn up so I had to join them for parade. Eh I didn't even pratice with tgem. Lucky i still remembered abit. Pretty disappointed with certain people. They knew they weren't supposed to cut in between the contingent as well as cutting across between the commander and the contingent. They still can laugh and joke about it. How uncivilised.
My cadets practiced so long for this parade. They have improved alot since. Right after the parade, Winnie and Hui Ying fainted. They didn't have breakfast. But thank God they are ok. (: I went for photo taking after the parade. I wasn't even ready leh! So last minute ask me go in. Haiyuh. Ok lah. WHen I was having my photo taking, some students were like waving at me and stuff. Haha.
Oh, and everywhere I go, people will ask me why two of my cadets fainted. Everybody leh. Haiyoh. I feel so malu when I walked into class this morning. They say my face was blushing. 'Cos Fatimah they all were like saying I'm pretty. HAHA. Ok lah. It's getting lengthy here. So, Tata for now. :D
School's NDP rehearsal yesterday.. It was quite ok. I didn't get to be inside the contingent. ): I sacrificed myself and let my juniors have a chance to march in the big parade. :D See, how nice I am to have let them have my place. They better promise to do their best man.
Jing Han is one of the flag bearers and she did a great job. :D Not easy being a flag bearer. I understand because I've done that. :D Just that she had to salute during the National Anthem but I didn't have to when I was the flag bearer. Hah.
After the reheasal, we practised on GB Day's parade once more with the girls. OMG. Today is their P&D Service! Too bad we can't go. Sad. Nvm lah. This year's P&D so early. Last time is after NDP but in August. Bleah.
Anyway. Pastor Kong shared a very good sermon today. It made me reflect on myself. Reflecting on my Self-Image, Self-Worth, Self-Esteem and Self-Respect. It just slapped me on my face and tell me I should pay extra attention to this sermon. Hah. But it's just very meaningful lah. Went Airport for dinner cum fellowship after that. I'm blessed by my friends again. I must bless hem one day. I promise. ((:
I was pretty upset this afternoon. I was kinda scolded by someone. Don't feel like talking. But now ok already. Oh my. I saw Ka Yan twice today lah. When heading to Bugis on 225 and when coming home, also on 225. How coincidental. Bleah. Ok lah. I'm tired. Tmr I'm going for POA tuition in the morning and for cell outing in the afternoon. So yah. Good nights. :D
blogged @ 11:52 PM
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Alright. I'm pretty happy that both my orals are over now. Next up will be MT listening exam. Should be somewhere next week. Must dig ears already. Hah. Ok, I think 85 market have become my frequent hang out place. Hmm. I'm lazy to blog lah.
Oh yes! I'm able to march for NDP08 this year. In school of course. :DD And i'm so going to wear my uniform on Monday because it's GB day.I don't know why but I just miss wearing my uniform. Though many people will laugh at me, wearing my uniform is the only time I can feel really confident.
Maybe God wants me to continue serving GB. (: No doubt I have grown alot from my CCA and have known many awesome friends through GB. Though I never got a chance to take part in SYF, Drill Comp, but I took part in NDP`07. A very significant event. I feel so proud to be a Singaporean. To many people it may be a waste of time but to me, it's definitely worth-to-spend time. In about a month, it will be NDP`08.
To think I was actually on the floating platform one year ago. And we were the first batch on the platform. How nice. And a week after NDP`07, it was Jing Han's birthday as well as Fireworks Festival. I kinda miss friends I've made there, the chartered buses that brought us around, our officers and stuff. And Singapore Flyer wasn't even ready at this time of last year! Now, everything is built. Interesting. Ok, before I continue talking and talking and talking, I shall end my NDP`07 thing.
Yey. Tmr will be first rehearsal. :D And I'm sure it will be an awesome one. :DDDDDD
blogged @ 8:18 PM
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
I was defeated by my own fear - O Level Chinese Oral.
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Monday, July 7, 2008
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY JIN HUI! :D
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One day, I will get out of this place and find myself. I will be a blessing to others. I will make a difference in people's lives. I will make others happy. I will be initiative and talk to others. I won't feel left out. I won't make anybody feel left out. I will learn to love myself first. And therefore when I start loving myself, I will know how to love others. I will not get upset because of the slightest things. I must no longer be defeated by this emo devil in me.
I cared too much of how others look at me. I feel extra wherever I am. I must overcome this fear in me to talk to others, to love others, to help others. Before that, I need to be confident of myself. I don't need everyone to love me. Because I know wherever I go, there will be definitely certain people who dislikes me.
Because there's God, I won't be afraid to face tomorrow. I won't be afraid to overcome everything. I won't be afraid of anything. And with so many people who care for me, my life is brighter, is like a shining star. There's rainbow after the rain. There won't be any dark clouds. There will be sunshine. I must be a sunshine myself to bring sunshine to others' lives. The sun has just risen. (:
blogged @ 11:17 AM
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Went for SLC Appreaciation Dinner last night. I saw everyone blogging about it with photos as well. However, I have no comments about the dinner. It was supposed to be enjoyable and fun. Maybe for the many others. Definitely not me of course. I didn't enjoy it. As expected. I already expected that I will be just be at the corner stoning. Yea, I'm anti social whatever. In events like these, I always have my camera with me. But nah. I have never used it in SLC events before. NEVER. And I never will get a chance to. I don't care. (:
Had a short video clip, some speeches, some prize-giving and then had dinner. As expected, buffet. A mini one of course. So, as usual. I felt left out. Though Kee Yee and Shirlene did tried entertaining me, it didn't really change my mindset that SLC events are BORING because I don't get to enjoy things that people do.
Some one kinda insulted my dressing last night even before everything started. I don't think there was a problem with my dressing. At least I'm casual. Some people dressed up as if they were going to some wedding dinner. And I didn't say anything. I felt like giving that person a tight slap but forget it. I know where I stand.
And some went to enjoy after the dinner with one another. They have lotsa picures and stuff. I have none. I went to meet Matt, Hui Yi, Calvin and Abraham for fellowship. They went Kembangan and had Muslim-Indian food. Pretty cool. Went home at 11 plus? Thank God when I reached ome, my mum was not back yet. Went to change and stuff. Mum and second bro came back and passed me a bag they had bought in Malaysia. I brought it to service this morning.((:
Ok lah. I don't wanna talk about anything already.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KIM HONG! :DD
blogged @ 11:46 PM
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Argh. Went to school today. Oops. I fell asleepin class again. =X Oh anyway, I woke up a few minutes late this morning. Didn't have time to have my breakfast at home so I brought it down with me. I placed my curry puffs [breakfast] beside my bottle. And both were just beside me. Th bus came, and I only remembered my bottle. I totally forgot about my curry puffs. I only realised that when I felt like eating and it was missing already. How interesting. =/
Saw EIFFAH today! I so miss her lahhh. Ahh. Saw Carmen at one of the bus stops stoning. So I msged her and told her not to stone and said that she will miss the bus if she fell alseep. Hah. EH. I want my curry puffs. ): GRR. Nvm, I settled my breakfast in school. Heh.
Went home with Guan Shen, Jin Hui and Sop just now. Stupid Jin Hui. Don't let me eat ICE CREAM. AHHHHHHHH. Bleah. =/
I'm so afraid that feelings will come back anytime. I'm not supposed to like you again. I mean, I love you. I miss you. But, I was so sure that there's wasn't going to be any hope. And I miss you. I don't know why. But I just miss you...
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Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Alright. I'm back. Hui Yi's birthday was yesterday but cell celebrated her birthday at Singapore Flyer's Popeye the day before. So cool right. It was supposed to be a surprise but when we came out of the MRT station, we saw Choon Kuan. -.- But it's ok. The rest showed up after that. =/
Took the chartered bus to Singapore Flyer and walked to Popeye. So we were like singing her Birthday song and stuff. So blessed right. Hah. Pictures are with Qiu Mong. So yea, be patient ok. Hah. Anyway,
