EDITED Oh great. it's the last day of 2007. It have been quite a tough year for all of us. I guess? or maybe for me, I'm kinda tired lah. There's many stuff I don't know/don't understand. Time flies. The day after tomorrow is school re-open. I guess I should just face the reality. I hope, new year, new beginning. And perhaps a new crush? HAHA. No lah. I must settle the current one first. Haven't settle want get new crush. Siao. And please lah. I'm struggling ok.. I'm struggling with thoughts about him being in the same tuition as me. Fish me. I cannot be defeated! I'm strong for 3 years already. I'm sure I can be strong for anothr 2 years? 5 years? Whatever~ I'm going to be strong forever. I can't just drop dead like that. Must inform people first. :p 2007.. Great year? I've got to know many friends this year. Through Camps and stuff. I got a chance to go for Singapore's BIGGEST event which is, NDP`07. I may not have the chance to know everyone in my contingent, but we've worked hard for it, just to acheive that same goal. And because of 2007, Jing Han and I have so much to talk about now. We used to be just not even hi-bye friends but just CCA /school mates. How bout that? NDP`07 have brought us together! :D And I don't really mix with the younger ones in my school. But I got to know this bubbly group of Sec2s during their Sec2 level camp. Through Drill Camp`07, I've got afew new friends too! You know, BB GB Combined Camp 2007, I've got to know more about BB boys regardless in my school or juniors from Feng Shan. They are great! Going for Nacli Camp, I have known friends from Outram Sec too! They are nice people! I'm still contacting them lah. :D Getting to know so many new friends, is definitely great. Like JYF`07, I've got to know afew more younger ones! Thank GOD for all the new friends I've made. Thank GOD for allowing me to still keep in touch with my old friends be it Primary school friends, Secondary school friends or Church friends. Thank GOD for bringing me though 2007. Thank GOD for people around me. Thank GOD for allowing me to get to know him. Thank GOD for such a wonderful family Thank GOD for all the things You have done for me. Thank GOD for all my wonderful friends. Thank GOD for blessing my friends, my family and I. Heh. I think I can list out what are the stuff I remembered for this year. 3F`07 NDP`07 Easter Service`07 BB GB Combined Camp`07 Leadership Conference Festival Of Praise`07 Class BBQ`07 Drill Camp`07 Service Learning Camp/ Sec2 Level Camp`07 NACLI Camp BCS Annual Concert`07 Christmas Carolling Christmas Service Christmas Party/Countdown at M'am Jasmine's house Chalet at Changi SLC-YEC Year-End Party`07 Anymore? Nahh~ I can't remember. But all these have left deep memories in me. Even on 080607 going down to 85 market just to pass somebody his birthday present. =.- Anyway, I still remember going out with Puay See on the first day of 2007. Great. Hah. I'm gonna spend my New Year's day with her again for 2008. :D Alright. Now for for my resolutions. :D My Resolutions for 2008 *NOT IN ORDER* First thing, slim down. How? I promise I will walk home everyday after school. I must ok! Please people, motivate me!!! =/ Second thing, study hard for Ns. How? Study with Sophia. Hehe. Third thing, be a good leader in GB. Fourth thing, be a better person. Fifth thing, save money. Sixth thing, EVERYBODY TO BE HAPPY! :D As a daughter- I will study hard, find a job when my birthday's over (so I'll be 16) and spend my own money (so I don't have to spend my parents' money). I will be a filial daughter, not making them angry all the time. I will be a sensible girl. I will reduce my handphone bill. I will use less computer, spend more time with them. I will take care of myself so as not to let my parents worry for me. As a younger sister- I will stop quarrelling with my brothers, live in harmony. Try to bring my two brothers in to talking conditions again. Share my stuff with them. As a student- I will study hard for my exams. I will do my homework and hand them in regularly. I will do my best to not sleep in class. I will be punctual for all lessons. I will not disobey teachers unless neccessary. As a student of Bedok North Secondary School- I will protect school/public property. I will greet teachers whenever I see them at the corridor. I will be polite to peers and teachers. As a leader in GB- I will lead my fellow GB girls well. I will/must do a good job in CCA Openhouse. Attract more new girls to joining GB. Take DS3, Advanced Drill so I can teach them better. I will care for them more. I will do my job well as Squad Leader. As a friend- I will do my best to make them happy. I will do my best to console them, to be with them when they need me. I will be there for them. Spend time with them. Stop complaining. Don't let them worry for me. Encourage them. Support them. As a girlfriend (if I have one next few years)- I will be faithful. I will be honest. I will support him. (moral support) I will trust him. (unless he betray me) I will NOT have pre-marital sex. blogged @ 12:28 PM Sunday, December 30, 2007 Just back from SLC/YEC Year End Party. It's fun. I can say. I left the house at 4? And I reached Eunos CC at 1615hrs. Zzzz.. Went to buy sweets then. Heh. Got presentations on our projects, followed by Buffet dinner and games. Again, I coughed coughed and coughed. It's hard lor. I mean it's hard not to cough. And I coughed until my head hurts again. Grrr. Games were fun. I had fun. ((: Everything finished at about 9? Adeline, Swee Ping, Shirlene, Jin Hui and I then walked out to the bus stop. Took a bus to Bedok Interchange. And went home. Jin Hui and Adeline went for movies with their friends. Oh yeah. I received more Christmas presents than Birthday presents. Amazing eh? Haha. Most of it were edible stuff can. Chocolates, sweets and stuff. Good thing? Bad thing? Both I guess. :S Damn. School's re-opening and yet I have't done at least half of my homework.. I'm dumb. Must work hard for Ns. Eh Anyway, I'm going to resgister for Tuition next year. BUT! My biggest worry... I dun wanna face somebody every week! ))): blogged @ 10:07 PM Just came back from Family BBQ at the Chalet. I'm having headache now. Grr. Cough-ed too much.. -.- Anyway, I woke up at 1pm today. I was damn tired can. Did all the stuff and preparation. Left the house at about 1640hrs.. Cab-ed down to Changi SAF Chalets. I went to get Ice and Charcoal. I was praying hard that it won't rain. But it rained quite heavily. I was on my way to Changi Village then. Walked under the rain. I was out Changi Viallage Hotel when I slipped and fell. )': *someone get me a pair of good slippers, pretty please... So I won't slip and fall again..* I reached one of the coffee shops and went in to ask if I could have cardboard to like shelter myself to Cheers opposite. Went to Cheers and got a packet of Ice and a packet of Charcoal. I wanted to get 2 packets each. But somehow I'm afraid I'll slip and fall again so I bought only one. I walked back to the Chalet and stuff. I was drenched. Nahh~ Who cares. I kept coughing like nobody business again. I cugh until I really got a headache. :S I did't really help much with the BBQ-ing 'cos Adrain gorgor, his friend(?) did the BBQ-ing. Was fun lah. Seeing the fire, it was much bigger than mine the day before. Ate some food. Shit. I ate alot of heaty stuff. And I feel damn guilty. Bleahs. Anyway, Jaena came, ate her dinner and we went upstairs. We started to take pictures! :D I like sia. Hehe. Damn. I forgot to bring my memory card! Could take limited pictures.. The rest are all with Ee Lin jiejie. We did alot of stupid stuff with Ee Lin jiejie and Sharon jiejie. Pose like siao lah. But i enjoyed their company. Say I chao ah lian for that buay song face. =/ Anyway, when I get the pictures, I will post them. So, nobody stayed over. All of us went home. Quite wasted lah. But what to do. Nobody wanna stay over. We left at about 11? Reached home at 11 plus plus. And yeah. i shall post the pictures now. blogged @ 12:10 AM Saturday, December 29, 2007 Thank you to people who came for the chalet and helped out.. Mummy: Thank you for giving me these two days at the chalet. Sorry to have spent so much money. Sorry for always misplacing stuff. Thank you for always forgiving me after a mstake that I've committed. Sory for throwing tantrums at times to you. Thank you for taking such good care of me. Thank you for everything you have done for me. I love you, mummy. Dennis (gorgor): Thank you for always giving in to me becasue I'm your younger sister. Thank you for helping my friends and I to start the fire despite having lotsa homework to do. Thank you for taking care of me. Thank you for always being so kind. Sorry to have thrown tanturms at you sometimes. Carmen: Hey. Thank you for everything. Thank you for your Christmas present. Thank you for that note. Thank you for listening to my complains. Thank you for making the potato salad for me. Thank you for helping me ask your mum to cook Fried Rice for us. Thank you for always supporting me. Thank you for always being there for me. Especially when I was really unable to decided for myself. I have so many things to thank you about. It wouldn't be enough to type them all out. Just wanna thank you for everything you have done for me. (: Puay See: Thank you for listening to me. Thank you for telling me so much. Thank you for staying by my side at my most 'emo' times. I was about to cry when I chatted with you. But I guess, I have become stronger.. Day by day. I hope I can get over it. I always gave myself false hopes. Seriously, I can't decide.. I don't wanna decide either. Jerlisa: Thank you for coming. I hope that you are not bored at the chalet. I'm sorry I wasn't able to accompany you and made you feel left out. I'm sorry. Hazel: Thank you for always reading my blog.(: Thank you for all the things you have said. You have been a very good friend. I thank you for always lightening my day, making it meaningful. Though we seldom chat/contact each other, you have left an impact in my life. Thank you. Cheuk Man: Thank you for coming. ((: Greatly appreciated. :D Eric: I guess, I have alot to say. Thank you for always giving in to me. Thank you for not complaining that I'm not a very good friend. I'm sorry to have had fallen in love with you. I'm sorry. Thank you for all the things you have done. I'm sorry I wasn't able to ease the awkwardness between us. I'm sorry I can't do it. I wanted to say "I think we need a talk" to you. But I can't do it. I'm dumb. I don't know how to trust you anymore. I wanna trust you. But after all those things you have said to me, I'm starting to think wild. It's wrong. Knowing that you are closer to this girl now, I still chose to read her blog all the time to know about you though I'll feel upset. You've changed. More matured. The way you talk is no longer the way you were anymore. Having you as my best friend, have been a very wonderful thing. I really didn't expect to go into relationship with you. I know I'm not ready. Neither are you. I don't know if you'll be reading this. I just wanna thank you for everything you have done for me. I didn't understand the "Destiny cannot be denied" phrase which you always said in the past. But now, I understand. We are not meant to be. I didn't know to talk to you. I just cannot pretend nothing had happened. Please forgive me. Grace: Thank you for always listening to me. Thought I don't feel any better talking to anybody. But thank you for always giving me the greatest support. Thank you for always encouraging me to be strong. Thank you for everything. (: Jin Hui: Thank you for being so thoughtful. Thank you for making us drinks afraid that we might have nothing to drink and wanna drink something. Thank you for bringing your charger for me to charge my phone. Thank you for always encoruaging me and supporting me whenever I feel useless. Thank you for always telling me that I'm not useless. Thank you for being such a great group leader. Sophia: Thank you for always being there when I needed somebody most. Thank you for helping me get some stuff when I needed them urgently. Thank you for allowing me use your computer when my computer is down. Thank you for helpng me with my POA. Thank you for always making my day happy. Thank you for everything you have done for me. I'm really greatful for these little things you have done for me. Si Hui: Thank you for always helping me with my blogskin stuff. Thank you for bringing my container home for me. Thank you for coming after your tiring Band practise. I'm sorry I didn't really talk to you at the chalet. I hope you enjoyed yourself at the chalet. Jia En: Thank you for always being so cheerful. Thank you for always giving in to others. Thank you for being so helpful. Thank you for you initiative to help in doing something. Thank you for no complaining when comes to helping others. You really have made my day. Thank you. Xiang2: Thank you for coming. I'm sorry I wasn't able to give you a card which I gave to the rest. I didn't know you were coming until on the day itself and I had no time to do it for you. I'm sorry. Thank you for beiong so enthu at times. You have made my day too.(: blogged @ 1:11 AM Went to meet Jing Han at 4pm. Went TM to get gifts for exchange. Then we wasted alot of time luhs. We literally walked round TM and CS for the sake of wasting time. =/ But ok lah. We talked alot. Went to take bus 15 to Pasir Ris Interchange, met Jeremy (M'am Pei Jun's Boyfriend), then he brought Lee Mei, Jing Han and I to the Condo where the Post-Carolling party was held. I had fun, I guess? I got chocolates again for Chrismas. And my disaster, coughing like nobody business or coughing becasue of itchy throat. Everything finished at about 2230hrs. We took bus home and here I am blogging. =/ blogged @ 12:55 AM Friday, December 28, 2007 Went for Chalet yesterday. Woke up at about 9? Did my stuff. Hazel came over to my place at 1230hrs. Puay See came at about 1335hrs. Then followed by Jerlisa. Carmen was supposed to come up to my place but then in the end she meet us at Tampines. I went to bath, and left the house at about 1430hrs? Was meeting Eric and Carmen at Small Macs. BBQ wholesale person called and told me that the delivery man will arrive at 1600hrs at the chalet. Therefore, I didn't wait for Eric and Carmen to arrive. I left to take bus 29 first. I reached the chalet carpark and just nice the delivery man had reached. Coincidentally, the driver/ delivery man, was the one who delivered the stuff to my class BBQ in June this year. And he recognise me lah. Good thing? Haha. Called my brother to come and help me. I mean he went to book in, put his stuff and came down to help me carry stuff to the chalet. After awhile, Carmen, Hazel, Jerlisa, Puay See and Eric reached the chalet. They sat down watching tvee and stuff. Carmen, Hazel and I went to collect the fried rice from Carmen mum's restaurant. Thank her mum for cooking the rice for us.(: Went to get cooking oil, and orange syrup at one of the shops in Changi Village. Went back to the chalet, I started frying chicken nuggets. Puay See helped to to test whether the nuggets are cooked by feeling them. Thanks, girl.(: The rest still sitting there watching tvee programmes. I went to start the fire with my brother. My brother helped us to set the fire and did most of the BBQ-ing. Thanks, gor. (: I was praying so hard the few days ago before the BBQ that God will give us good weather. And thank God, weather was preety alright for BBQ. (: Spent most of the time in front of the pit. Grace, Si Hui, Jia En, Xiang2, Sophia and Guan Shen came. BNSS people and YNPS people are like separated into 2 groups. BNSS people were in the room, enjoying the air-con and watching tvee in the room whereas YNPS people were at the living room watching tvee despite introducing. I was disappointed though. I was all over. I hoped I had spent more time with them. I wished I had shared their joy, their jokes.. But I guess.. Nahh~ Seriously, I find it hard communicating with someone. Whatever~ If all these didn't happen, I guess I'm still able to ask for a picture taken together. At about 10 plus or 11, chatted with Puay See at a corner. And she knows it all. Anyway, went back to the chalet. At about 11 plus, Carmen, Cheuk Man and Eric were going home. I walked them to another bus stop. Took a few pictures. And I kept telling Carmen that my post will be an emo one. =/ I walked back to the chalet alone. Then, Jerlisa went home. Anyway, there was this "muthu Slimming Centre" thingy. They called me saying what I have the potential to lose weight and have a nice body(?). They knew my name, and they said my school referred me to them. -.- How would my school wanna refer me to an "unknown" slimming centre which was said to be in Little India??? Ridiculous. Cleared up the place and went up to the room. Grace, Guan Shen, Jia En, Sophia and Puay See decided to stay over. Jin Hui stayed until about 1 plus and his Dad came to fetch him. After trying to stay awake until 4 plus, I feel asleep eventually. It'd been a very tiring day. Sleeping at 2 plus just to finish my Christmas Cards the previous day and waking up at 9 plus to prepare stuff and carrying so many stuff to the chalet.. This is a very long post eh? Well, I still have lots to say.. Don't find me long-winded ok? I woke up at 8 plus this morning. And slacked awhile until like 10 plus going 11, I went to buy breakfast with Guan Shen at Changi Village. Came back to the chalet and ate them. Went up to the room to watch tvee. Jin Hui is my saviour! He brought charger so I can charge my phone. Hehe. Thanks, boy.(: Played Dai-di until about 1330hrs then I left the chalet because I needa meet Jing Han at 4. I'll post the pictures later. good photography skills.(: Hazel! What's with your face? Cheuk Man! Open your eyes! My buddies. So far apart. Behind. Normal. Kena kissed. oops. blogged @ 11:30 PM Wednesday, December 26, 2007 Went ECP with Iris today. Then stayed awhile, went to Parkway to shop. Then reach home about 1945hrs. Went to meet Carmen at Sheng Shong to get some ingredients. Went to her house and make potato salad. Then I just came home. I'm gonna burn midnight oil today to finish up my cards. =/ blogged @ 11:03 PM Tuesday, December 25, 2007 Today's Christmas. Supposedly going out with Jin Hui they all. But they cannot decide where to go. So, I ended up going Tampines with my second brother and mum. We went to eat something. 'Cos I was pretty hungry. Heh. Went to BHG which used to be SEIYU. Went to shop for bro's shirt and tee shirt. Since got sale. Haha. Anyway, after that, bro went to meet his friend which in the end they didn't meet. I went to Montip and get my hairband. Dad came to fetch us. But I didn't follow mum cause I wanna get some stuff. I went to the Basement, trying to find candy canes. But I couldn't find them anywhere. I've learnt a lesson, which is, never get Christmas or other events' stuff last minute. Grr. I decided to go down to Pasir Ris and get Honey sticks. I wanted to buy 24. But not worth it. So, I bought 50sticks at $16.50. 50 cents per stick. So, yah. It's pretty worth it. :D I took a train home. On the wy home, I saw M'am Pei Jun and M'am Grace walking so fast across me in the train. So, I called out for M'am Pei Jun. She was pretty surprised to see me lah. Hah. Anyway, I'm making Christmas Cards. I know it's late. But, well, the thought that counts. And I seriously think my drawing sucks. I hope my recipients don't mind. Haha. Alright. I'm off to do my stuff already. BYE~ MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D blogged @ 11:11 PM Alright. It's 0128hrs now. I'm not asleep yet. I just came home about an hour ago. Met Yi Chun at Bedok Inter 1500hrs. Then head down to Far East to get some stuff. Yey. I got what I wanted. And Yi Chun got her Christmas hats. Went down to Pasir Ris by bus. In the bus, it was pretty crowded and peaceful lah. Until this bunch of dumbasses board the bus and made so much noise. FYI, they are all girls and one is I-don't-know-whether-he/she-is-a-girl/guy. And for God's sake, we didn't even say anything or do anything. They were trying to find us trouble. They sat opposite us. They were saying what fat people must wear white bra stripe, white teeshirt and what "if I over 70+kg I rather go and die". I kept quiet. I didn't wanna quarrel with UNCIVILISED people who just find others trouble. I was looking else where and they said this, "not happy ah? not happy go down bus talk lah". Of course, I didn't. I'm civilised ok. (: They alighted at one of the stops at Pasir Ris. When they walked past us, one of them just mumbled under her breath, "...freako" or sth like that. They alighted and one of them, the one who mumbled under her breath, pointed her 'oh-so BEAUTIFUL' middle finger at us. -.- How uncivilised these KIDS can be? And one of them were actuaklly wearing her school PE tee. "TPSS". Hurr. Dumb. Anyway, went to meet M'am Pei Jun, Jing Han and Lee Mei at the control station. Went for Macs for a drink then we headed down to M'am Jasmine's house. Pretty fun. But somehow, I wasn't as high as my previous Carollings. No idea why. Yi Chun and I played Scissors-Paper-Stone. And I kept losing and I had to really stretch my legs. Grr. And so, BB boys got 'free-show'. Haha. Ok lah. But I had fun. Counted down for Christmas and high awhile home before heading home. And, last but not least, MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D I didn't know one covered her face and the other looked like she pointed her middle finger.. Yi Chun your leg! =/ Pam & Liane! :D blogged @ 1:27 AM Monday, December 24, 2007 徐婕儿 - 我可以忍受 我可以忍受你不够爱我 我可以忍受你有别的梦 就算是编谎话哄我 至少你还在乎我的感受 我可以忍受眼神的空洞 我可以忍受你时间不够用 却不能忍受作了那么多 是她拥有我该得到的温柔 爱着你 是我改不了也不愿改的习惯 要放开哪有那么简单 了解你 是我说不出也不承认的悲哀 包容你 是我体谅的爱别当作应该 我可以忍受你不够爱我 我可以忍受你有别的梦 就算是编谎话哄我 至少你还在乎我的感受 我可以忍受眼神的空洞 我可以忍受你时间不够用 却不能忍受作了那么多 是她拥有我该得到的温柔 爱着你 是我改不了也不愿改的习惯 要放开哪有那么简单 了解你 是我说不出也不承认的悲哀 包容你 是我体谅的爱别当作应该 我可以忍受你不够爱我 我可以忍受你有别的梦 就算是编谎话哄我 至少你还在乎我的感受 我可以忍受眼神的空洞 我可以忍受你时间不够用 却不能忍受作了那么多 是她拥有我该得到的温柔 no.no.no 不要说对不起 原来你要的不是我 不要说谢谢你 什么你永远在我心中 can u tell me why 这样的我你也曾爱过 不是吗 我可以忍受你不够爱我 我可以忍受你有别的梦 就算是编谎话哄我 至少你还在乎我的感受 我可以忍受眼神的空洞 我可以忍受你时间不够用 却不能忍受作了那么多 是她拥有我该得到的温柔 是她拥有我没看过的笑容 blogged @ 10:20 AM Sunday, December 23, 2007 Went for Christmas Service this morning. I was supposed to wake up at 0645 but I woke up at 0721 instead. How great. Met Lee Mei and Yi Chun at Bedok Interchange Alighting Point. Had to wear what we wore for Christmas Carolling which was white top and denim jeans. We went Macs to get breakfast. Got there at about 0900hrs? We went down and sang for the folks at the entrance of Chinese Service. I think? Went back for our own service. Sang Christmas Carols and stuff. We were damn high can. Jumping here and there and stuff. Lee Mei, Yi Chun adn I were kinda playing during service. Oops. And I merely dozed off. I was tired can. Anyway, after the service, went out for buffet lunch. Went to the toilet and saw Ms Ho, Sir Edward and his younger sister. :D I seriously enjoyed myself today. I got quite afew Christmas gifts today. :D I'm gonna get Carmen something. But I needa head down to somewhere. Maybe I'll go alone tmr. :D Anyway, after everything, we went home. This who happened to be M'am Li Sha's friend (?), is also my senior for YNPS and BNSS. Damn qiao can. I don't his name, nor his age. Grr. He don't wanna tell me his age. =/ Anyway, he's a nice person. Accompanied me to wait for bus at Bedok Interchange after Yi Chun and her friend pangseh-ed me. That guy went to meet his friend after that. Bleahs. Came home changed and left the house to meet Sophia at Tampines. I happened to see her on bus 67. :D So we went together luhs. We went home at about 1730hrs. Then I came home, ate and bathed. Here I am blogging. :D Under Christmas Tree at Expo Conference Hall. :D Christmas gifts. :D Very messy though. =/ blogged @ 6:46 PM Saturday, December 22, 2007 Hey. I just came back from Christmas Carolling. Oh sooo cool.. I'm soo happy today! :D Anyway, I shall blog about it. :D Woke up at like 10 plus, had breakfast, used the computer, bathed, went out of the house at about 1320hrs? Took 168 down to Tampines MRT Station to meet M'am Li Sha and Lee Mei for lunch. I was punctual! I so thought I was gonna be late can. Anyway, went to the Food Junction at CS and had our lunch. Each of us got a dish and we shared. Quite a heavy lunch lah. Walked around Tampines Mall's Isetan and Sookee Jewellery to find a necklace suitable for M'am Li Sha's mum as a Birthday cum Christmas(?) present. Set off to Pasir Ris at about 1510hrs. We were on the dot! Haha. Cab-ed down to our first stop, Seng Kang. We were splitted up to take different cabs. My group always paid the most. Grr. Stayed at the house for awhile until 1830hrs? We sat there playing games lahhh. So fun. We played Tempo, Heart Attack and some Tuki Tuki game? Hah. Heart Attack, we used our hands and also our legs since using hands will make us damn stuffy. So, we used our legs instead. Hah. We were all laughing our heads off can. How long have I not had such a great time? We set off to another house at Tampines. This time, my group and M'am Li Sha's group got the same amount. Heh. But anyway, that's not the point. We were early, so we slacked at the void deck, took pictures, sing song. Heh. We went up to the house at about 1925hrs. Sing songs, eat, listen to Pastor David's message. And set off to the last stop in Tampines also. This time, went to Meryl's place. Fun. Fun. Fun. Pastor David sent Yi Chun, Lee Mei, Jing Han, M'am Li Sha and I home. Pastor David is sooooo nice lah. THANK YOU Pastor David! :D And there I am blogging. :D Alright. I shall post pictures! Yey. Hah. Leg fight. Haha. Colourful eh? (x Whooo~ Tongue Kissing. HAHAHA. Normal. Retarded. Karen standing in front of everyone. =/ Group shot1 Group shot2 Timothy! Yi Chun - Ever ready for the camera. Nanni nanni poo poo~ HI-5!! :DD blogged @ 10:59 PM Friday, December 21, 2007 You know. I just got a feeling chalet and BBQ won't work out successfully. I mean. What's the point of sending so many messages and I don't get replies? It's heartbreaking. Only 7 confirmed going. The rest? I have about 21 people on my list. 7 confirmed, 4 not going, 4 cannot contact, the rest to be confirmed. Great. How am I gonna prepare food for BBQ? Sad lah. I just got the urge to blog and stuff. Bro's using my comp to play War Craft and obviously I'm using his Laptop. I seriously have nothing to do. I'm shagged totally. I need a break. I wanna head down to ECP one day alone to straighten out my thoughts. I'm serious ok. People may think I'm mad. Why go emo myself right? But it doesn't make me feel any better sharing with others. So useless lah. Talking myself is not a solution. Thinking on my own is one eh? Haha. Oh great. I'm having Christmas Carolling #2 tmr with the rest. Feliz Navidad Feliz Navidad Feliz Navidad Great there I go again. Nahh~ I'm getting nervous. School is just one week ahead! Waking up early at 0550hrs, going to school, start studying hard for Ns, get good results. My goal, my resolution. Pls God, give me the motivation!! Alright. Off to watch movie on the net. Byeeee~ blogged @ 10:16 PM I walked to Tampines Mall from my house alone just now. I just felt like walking there so I walked there lah. Suddenly, I realised that when you have a company, the distance tend to be shorter and when you walk alone, you will just feel like the distance is so far but the fact is, the distance is the same. Anyway, hen I just left my house, at BLK 507, this groups of people. Ok, just 3 girls (Looking not over 14). They were sitting by the table at the void deck. I walked past them, glanced and turned back. I didn't do anything. Yet, this girl, trying to act as if she's the big sister there, said in Mandrain, "See what see!" Then I don't know what they were saying already. So I turned back. I walked and turned back. Then she was like, "see again!" That kinda thing lah. So dumb right. I do my thing you do your thing. I walk my road, you talk with your friend. Nothing will happen right? And please, I was just glancing lah. Then how in the hell did they know I'm looking at them if they don't look at me? A bunch of troublemakers. It's not as if they own the place. Damn it. Hack lah. The second time I turn back, I diao them. Not really diao lah. As in like take a quick glacne at them lah. So it's my fault ah? Dunno lah. I continued to walk to Tampines to get stuff. Bought Mum's alarm clock and went to Popular. Supposed to buy SS books but Out of Stock again. I told the person I want CME. What the hell. Then suddenly I remember I already bought my CME books. -.- Went NTUC to get Strawberries. And I came home. While walking to the interchange, I saw this bunch of troublemakers again. HAHA. They didn't see me. I directly walk past them. Yet, they didn't see me. I'm right, Lower Sec students. They were with this BGSS lower sec boy lah. So, most oprobably they are lower sec.They dn't look like sec2 also. I think they are just gonna be Sec2 next year. Haha. I wanted to walk home lah. But I lazy already. So, I decided to take bus home. And I'm home already. (: I hope I don't see this bunch of people again. blogged @ 1:55 PM Thursday, December 20, 2007 Just came back from dinner at 416 like 1 hr 30 min ago. Alright. It's a pretty satisfying meal. I mean it's newly opened, the food is fresh and not bad lah. And the business is pretty good.(: The Botak Jones whiched just opened there, have very good business too. I shall try it next time. Hehe. Anyway, I'm home the whole day besides going out for dinner. Heh. But ok lah. Sophia came over just now. (: Watched Step Up again. Sian-ed. Anyway, I think school reopen I shall walk home everyday. I must! Serious. I'm serious ok! Bleahs. Ok lah. I think this week damn sian. Yey. Next week got chalet. I call 6E people. But I wanna call Jing Han, Sophia, Hui Yi, Grace, Jin Hui, Guan Shen they all leh. But I scared later Yu Neng and Bedok North people buay gum leh. I scared I pang seh them also sia.... ): BNevermind. I try asking them lor. Can help them make more friends too. Hehe. :D Ok lah. I think I end here. BYE~ :D blogged @ 8:35 PM Wednesday, December 19, 2007 Better Together - Jack Johnson There's no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard No song that I could sing But I can try for your heart Our dreams, and they are made out of real things Like a, shoebox of photographs With sepiatone loving Love is the answer, At least for most of the questions in my heart Like why are we here? And where do we go? And how come it's so hard? It's not always easy and Sometimes life can be deceiving I'll tell you one thing it's always better when we're together [Chorus:] MMM it's always better when we're together Yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together Well, it's always better when we're together Yeah, it's always better when we're together And all of these moments Just might find their way into my dreams tonight But I know that they'll be gone When the morning light sings And brings new things For tomorrow night you see That they'll be gone too Too many things I have to do But if all of these dreams might find their way Into my day to day scene I'd be under the impression I was somewhere in between With only two Just me and you Not so many things we got to do Or places we got to be We'll Sit beneath the mango tree now It's always better when we're together Mmmm, we're somewhere in between together Well, it's always better when we're together Yeah, it's always better when we're together MMmmmm MMMmmmm Mmmmmm I believe in memories They look so, so pretty when I sleep Hey now, and when I wake up, You look so pretty sleeping next to me But there is not enough time, And there is no, no song I could sing And there is no, combination of words I could say But I will still tell you one thing We're better together. blogged @ 8:35 PM How long have I not get too engrossed over a tvee programme and cried because of what was happening in the show? Quite some time ago since I last cried over a tvee programme. I was watching Kinship2 on Channel 8 just now. I was so engrossed, I cried. When Yu Sheng and Ying Jun part from each other, it's a really touching, sad part. Oh how great. I seriously dislike certain characters in the show can. So evil. RAHHH. Alright. Enough of tvee. I've been home the whole day. You know I came home this morning right. It felt as if I came back yesterday. Funny eh? But nahhh. I don't think I will be tired later. 'Cos i slept quite a lot this morning. From the time I slept, 7 plus in the morning, I slept until 10 plus, woken up by my Aunty. 'Cos I forgot to message her that I reach home already. I went back to sleep and woke up at 1 plus in the afternoon. I was wondering if I should go East Coast Park alone to 'emo'. Nahh~ Not really emo lah. But just to straighten out some thoughts. No distractions! But I also not sure if I should do that lah. Though I feel like doing it.(: Ok lah. I end here. BYE~ blogged @ 8:01 PM Aww. I only slept for like an hour last night at my Aunt's chalet. Oh no. The chalet was just opened for fun lah. That's why it is on weekdays. oh yes, I just got home about 30 min ago. Early right. I left the chalet damn early, 0515hrs? Whatever. I miss MUMMY! :DDDD Anyway, went Town with Carmen yesterday. I was supposed to meet her at 1330hrs. But I know she will be late so I wait for her to msg me. Hahaha. Went down to Eunos MRT to meet Hui Ying's younger sis to return Hui Ying her 15 bucks which I have owed her previously. We went to get tickets for Alvin And The Chipmunks and went for lunch at LJS. OMG. I'm sinful. I ate soo much for lunch that I didn't really feel like eating dinner. =/ No, just a set of Combo2 and I was soooooooo FULL. Screw me. Catch Alvin And The Chipmunks after lunch. Alright. It's a good movie. As in the chipmunks are damn cute lahhhh. I wish it could be a reality. Haha. Anyway, Carmen was telling me about the couple behind us reapeating practically what is shown on the theatre screen. I can't really hear what they say though. However, I can only hear BEES buzzing around. (: After the movie, accompanied Carmen to do some of her Christmas Shopping. And something funny is, whatever she buy, I stuff everything into my bag 'cos I'm very afraid of her losing her stuff. After so many times she had lost her stuff. She go out with me she should be extra careful 'cos I'll keep reminding her/ nagging at her to put her money properly in her purse, keep her phone in her clutch(?), etc. Alright. Pammy Old Granny. =/ Wanted to hve dinner with her but SORRY, Mum called and told me that Aunty is waiting for me at her chalet already, since 6plus? Then I had to like rush there lor. Sorry, Carmen! Had to pangseh you.. ): I reached the chalet at like 9 plus. Had my dinner there. Some of Alson's friends were there. They went for movies but unfortunately Tampines Mall/Century Square no midnight show? I think? Alson and Alven came back at around 12 plus? Oh yes, the doors are damn creepy.I don't how to say lah. It suddenly was locked(?). Oh anyway, I waited for Jaena until 2 plus. I fell asleep. Then at about 0320hrs Jaena came back. She went to the toilet, came out and started to talk on the phone. My aunt was pretty pissed. Bleahs. 'Cos instead of sleeping, she chatted on the phone. Then after that I couldn't get back to sleep already. Then at 4 plus aunt decided to bring some stuff back home. She came back at about 5 plus. Then I left with Jaena. As in, Jaena walked me to the bus stop. So we were chatting about lotsa stuff while waiting for bus 17. And then I reach home already. :D blogged @ 7:05 AM Tuesday, December 18, 2007 Seriously, I don't what's the problem with my new comp. I can't enter my own blog. I mean can but I can't do anything! I can't go my links, I can't tag. And it is fine on my bro's comp. No use REFRESHING the page lahh. I can refresh the page so many times it's still like that. I thought it was the blogskin's problem but it was not luhh. It just don't work lah. Cannot be my URL's problem lor. 'Cos I have used so many thousand times also no problem only change comp jiu got this problem luh. I think the Refresh button spoil lor. Bloody hell. First, they did give us our Microsoft Office Softward which we ordered together with the computer. Second, Refresh button sucks, on my blog or not only on my blog. Whatever lah. I must tell my mum about it. As in like yesterday when the computer come, my blog already like that le lor. But when I use it on my bro's comp, it works perfectly fine. *Bang the wall, and Pam died* Whatever shit. SLAP MY FACE!!!! Damn it. Grrrrr. Super pissed lah. Forget it. Yesterday, went to meet Carmen in the morning, accompanied her for haircut at WHITE HOUSE. Carmen was complaining about the hairdresser. Haha. Came to my place and slack. Walked Carmen downstairs and she went to find her friend. In the evening, computer man come and delivered the comp. Carmen came my house again 'cos she forgot her camera that she had left behind earlier on. Watched Kinship2. And accompanied her to eat dinner. 511 was closed for I-don't-know-what-reason. Walked to 85 then. Went home at abut 2130hrs. Carmen, don't upset already ok! SMILE! :D blogged @ 10:06 AM Sunday, December 16, 2007 I don't know how to say this. I don't know whether I should say this. It's damn tiring. I'm in the midst of nowhere. I don't know how to continue. I always thought something good is gonna happen. I guess I have been wrong all the time. I didn't expect all these to happen. I tried not telling/showing him that I still liked him. I really don't understand/know why somehow he still knew it. We have been very good friends in fact best friends. But I don't we even looked like best friends. I still don't know what to reply. I don't know how to respond. If he NEVER knew that I liked him, will things be better? Not even the first attempt when one of my friends tested him and told him that I liked him? It takes so much courage to convince someone that she had given up. It took so much courage to love someone. I wonder if I was dumb and stupid for loving this person. I was, I guess. In fact, I still am. I no longer have any option. One of my friends told me, "You are only one of his options but you made him you priority." How true can that be? Yesyes, destiny cannot be denied. Now it's happening to me. Whatever is not mine, it will never be mine. It wasn't like we got to choose our own destiny/fate. He thought it was easy. I didn't wanna let go.. I'm afraid to miss him again.. He somehow is forcing me to. I tried not to talk about other stuff in front of him. Only a message of thankyous, brought a hurtful reply. I was hurt once again. How can anyone be as stupid as me? I've somehow learnt to appear strong in front of people who love me. But, still I can't hide my tears. Suddenly, you will see me crying. My response will always be shaking my head. I will always be thinking to myself, is loving someone wrong? When I was so down, so hurt, I seriously wished I could find somewhere deserted and bury myself into it. I don't feel better talking to people about my problems. My officer told me, once someone is over 'high' or over 'depressed', then there must be something. How can someone be so 'high' suddenly? I was. I have been VERY 'high' for the past few days. Somehow, I just don't want others to worry about me. I don't want them to be unhappy because of me. I want them to know that I'm happy. Hpw fake can I be? How long can my smile last? I can't stop thinking about it. It's haunting me. And I seriously hate those feelings/thoughts. I didn't want all these to happen. What can I do? I can't ease the awkwardness between us. Anymore. You started it. Now, you want me clear up the mess? What's with me? Why me? Why torture me? This is my blog. This is where I pent down my feelings, my thoughts. You don't have to read it. blogged @ 11:55 AM Saturday, December 15, 2007 Went for Christmas Carolling practise at 525 last night. Was fun lah. Anyway, went for post camp this afternoon. It wasn't as what I expected. I expect to see more pictures. And I expect to see the photos we have taken during Night Trail. Grr. Nevermind. Went for Christmas Carolling at Punggol after that. I didn't join Yi Chun they all for the first house they visited. But I joined them for the following 2 houses luh. Anyway, good experience. Went M'am Jasmine's house for PIZZA. Woot~. Hahaha. No ah. It was ordered when we were there to slack. :D Went on to one of the terrace houses. Wow. We got Winne The Pooh Bear for our gift. It's cool lah. My very first Christmas present. :D Alright. I've been out the whole day. Most probably gonna get my comp tmr. Yeah man. Ok lah. I'm tired. Gonna bath and sleep. Bye and Nights. :D blogged @ 11:00 PM Friday, December 14, 2007 Ok, here are the photos. Enjoy. :D "last minute" preparation for careboard. =/ Vincent's lunch was covered so that birds/crows can eat. HAHA. Cambio Not in picture: Qi Ying, Ngai Yan and Charlene FELISE! :D RUTH! :D [Vincent painted her face like that. The only one with Green and Black stripes.] HAHA. Half Face person. You can't see my right eye right? =/ WEI XUAN!! :DD PAM.ClARICE.ESTHER SI TING the Butterfly! KAI REN.SI TING METAMORPHOSIS -bian drawing on Vincent's face.. front. Whoo~. Their works. Haha. WEI XUAN.ERICSSON.VINCENT Yeah man. Heh. DOREEN.ESTHER SI TING the Butterfly - Full. JUSTIN painted his nails. HAHAH. PAM and the Butterfly. QIU RONG only know how to play one song. Hehe. CAMPFIRE!! :DD Nicest Cheer Award goes to CAMBIO! :DD blogged @ 9:12 AM