Tuesday, June 21, 2005 there's a few things i wanna say.. i dunno what's wrong with updating my blog k.. there's this gal.. i dun wish to the name.. she read my friendster blog.. well, just becos i keep updating my blog in friendster, she gets so irritated that she scolded me in the comments list.. besides all the crude comments she posted, now she scold me a bitch in the comments.. now the comments in my friendster blog is so crude.. just go check it out.. http://www.the-gal-pamela.blogs.friendster.com/ it seems to be my wrong updating my blog.. i dun see any wrong lor.. i dunno what's she's thinking that she's just being too much lor.. she just dun respect me.. she said in one of the comments that she's getting irritated by me updating my blog.. and emails from friendster saying that i have updated my blog.. and she's getting irritated by the emails.. so its not my wrong after all right? as she could just edit her profile that there's one thing in it that she can choose to receive updates or notifications from friendster.. she chose to receive those emails from friendster.. so what can i do? i can do nth.. well, that doesn't mean i have to go by her.. giving in by not updating my blog?? its weild right? just becos of her i can't update my blog.. some more she can just delete the emails without even looking at my updated blog what.. like everything is my prob.. well.. now that i have my blogspot, i will never update my friendster blog again.. and i can just delete the blog there right?? but i didn't wanna delete yet as there's pictures in my photo album in friendster.. i just dun understand.. is it really my prob is she's getting irritated by the notifications? i dun think so lor.. and she even say i'm irritating.. giving me that stupid remark.. like its totally my fault for updating my blog.. dun think its totally me to be blame lor.. she chose to read and chose to receive the notifications from friendster de lor.. its not my prob right? i update my blog she also wanna care.. what kinda person she is?? she's really too much lor.. taking me for granted?? think i very hao qi fu ah.. and she herself admitted to whatever i've said in the blog.. and she scold me a bitch?, an irritating gal?.. ok lah i can admit i'm irritating in some ways.. i dun see why she must care about me updating my blog lor.. some more she got so many spelling errors.. sec 1 le lor.. so many words spell wrong.. ok i'm not being proud ok.. i admit i also have spelling errors at times k.. i'm just stating the fact lor.. ok now its not the prob of spelling errors k... its the attitude she's showing.. she's like too much le lor.. i'll never update my friendster blog again..since its ALL my fault.. and since she gets so irritated by the updates i'm making in my blog in friendster.. i dun wish to continue this anymore.. blogged @ 3:15 PM Thursday, June 16, 2005 hmm.. yesterday night peixuan gave me a call.. ask me wanna go sing karaoke anot.. wah she so generous sia.. she treat me and esther.. actually still got some of her friends but they today last minute cannot go.. so nvm lor.. hmm... then pei xuan meet me today at bedok mrt control station... wah she so good sia.. she live at choa chu kang yet she's willing to meet me in bedok.. so good hor.. yesterday right we was like talking on the phone again lor.. then we talk talk talk she ask if wanna ask any of the ppl from fellowship to go to karaoke lah.. i say up to her mah cos is supposingly celebrating her birthday.. so we decided call esther.. actually esther not confirm de.. but can lor.. then pei xuan ask me if she should call alex go.. then i very fickle minded mah.. yi xia zi say ok lor yi xia zi say hmm.. dun want lah.. then say ok lor again.. so she msged alex lah.. then he today reply saying he's coming.. but he dunno me going.. so nvm lah.. today at 2pm i meet pei xuan at control station mah.. while waiting for alex and his friend, there's two women from philipines christain lah.. then they talk to us about the what mormon thing.. i was like not listening to what they say cos i was listening to my discman mah.. but can hear little bit.. pei xuan was so attentive to their talk.. then they gave us each a card and told us the church's webby.. and then they went off with our hp numbers.. i mean they ask so we give lor.. then alex and his friend, jun xiang came.. then at first they nv see me and pei xuan de.. but then pei xuan saw them lah.. then they see us.. alex and jun xiang didn't know that i came and didn't know that was me.. the alex and jun xiang told pei xuan that i look so frightening.. say i look like ah lian.. wah kao.. so bad hor.. then they so scared of me mah.. they never talk to me.. so hack care.. when we going off le.. they decided not to go.. they told pei xuan they go dunno where drink beer.. so hack care le lor.. and they nv go mah.. then me and pei xuan took the mrt go jurong there meet esther.. then we go the jurong centre there the k box lah.. upon reaching the k box right, pei xuan wanted to buy something to drink so we went to the jolly bean to buy her drink then i buy a pancake cos i'm hungry.. then we went up to the k box.. then we dun dare go in mah..its like scared we too young cannot go in.. then pei xuan go ask the guy can we go in not.. so he said can but if member then can use student price as we are students.. so pei xuan filled up a form to become a member.. like that dun need alot of money.. one person for $8.. then we went in to our appointed k box room.. then we was like.. taking a long time to figure out how to use the remote.. haha.. after figuring out the remote right, we started to sing.. so we sang quite a number of songs lah.. about 5 something like that peixuan and esther went to the toilet leaving me alone in the room so.. i was like little bit scared lah.. so i just continued to "sing song".. waiting for them to come back.. then cos i have to go home at 6pm.. they come back le we sing a few songs before i leave for home.. cos i wanna watch tvee mah.. so leave early.. they leaving the k box at 6.30pm together.. cos they both live at choa chu kang.. at 6pm i walked quickly out of k box to the mrt station take train come back bedok.. in the train i listened to my discman.. then my mummy msg me to ask if i need dinner.. so i told her yeah.. then i alone in teh mrt so sian.. so many ppl.. but hack care lah.. reach bedok le i quickly walked to the interchange sit bus back to my house.. i missed one 225 white plate le mah.. then scared very long then come.. when i in the 225 white plate bus path le right i saw there's one 69 so i "crawled" out of the 225 white plate bus path quickly go sit the 69 bus which also can go my house.. reach my bus stop le then i walked very quickly back home.. lukily i reached home before my show starts.. muahaha.. see i'm really crazy about tvee.. haha.. yeah.. think i write until here le.. my head very pain.. so.. bye and take carez.. dun laugh at me ah.. =P blogged @ 9:03 PM Tuesday, June 14, 2005 u guys may ask me why i still treated them like friends no matter how they treated me.. when i was in primary school, there are some friends that made use of me..(huiyi i didn't copy u.. its true..) they treated me like a robot.. they controlled me.. they ask me do something i must do it.. if not they will not friend me.. u may think its very childish of friend here and there.. but we are still kids at that time.. as kids, who cares its childish or not.. but of course in secondary school, we have grown up.. not so childish le.. but there are still ppl that felt they have been left out in some way.. some are still childish.. well.. friends dun come easily.. anyway.. let's get back to the topic.. i was treated as a robot.. but who cares? nobody.. and i'm just nobody to them that they just treated me as a being controlled robot, not a friend.. until i reach pri 5 and 6.. i felt that friends beginning to leave me.. i sat everyday behind the canteen alone.. thinking of how they treated me.. i used to think that weiteng, carmen, hazel, jerlisa, puay see, ann chee, evelyn, meifang, feline purposely left me out.. well.. of course there's guys.. nelson, randy, eric, junjie and some of them are my good friends.. and the gals i mentioned too.. they are my good friends.. sometimes i felt left out with them.. although we do go out together in a group and there's either only me and wei teng or me alone in the group of guys.. but who cares.. they are my friends.. and they know i always play with guys.. so doesn't really matter.. i used to be an irritating freak.. made ppl hate me.. i used to be irritating, selfish, petty, crybaby and all those u can think of.. i have tried to change myself.. it did work.. for a while..but when i came to secondary school.. my life and my attitude change completely.. i used to hate my school.. but now.. after 5 months in the school.. i realised that there's alot i could do in school.. and i knew quite a number of friends.. fat, skinny, tall or short.. i have met them all in my school.. but no matter how they look, they are still my friends.. its their attitude which i mind.. i mean.. some dun really have good attitude but still my friends.. know what? huiyi's the first one i got to know in bnss.. i didn't regret knowing her although sometimes i did.. becos she siao siao bo liao bo liao scold me.. haiyoh.. but she's a great friend.. she brought lotsa joy to my life.. really.. she's always not serious.. that makes her so cute and cheerful.. =) i'm not lying here.. all i said its true.. believe me not.. bleah.. is it long enough?? hmm.. nvm.. whatever lah.. just wanna tell ur that "dun judge a book by its cover" yeah..sounds familiar? well.. its an english idiom.. there may be "treasure" inside him or her.. well.. there are many things we can do in life.. and that making friends is good but dun join the wrong company hor.. being friendly also good but cannot too friendly.. will easily kana hurt de.. so.. dun be too soft hearted like me.. dun believe other ppl too easily or else u will be bullied de.. ha.. kk.. i dun wanna be that irritating freak again.. ha.. =P k lah.. stop here le.. very tired.. so.. may everyday of ur lives be filled with warmth and laughter by ur friends and families k.. take carez peeps..=) blogged @ 9:01 PM it may be a good thing that alex never message me le.. but i'm guilty that i pulled pei xuan down to the water.. although is she ownself wanna jump into things de but its all my fault.. if i haven't get to know that idiot, weiteng, peixuan, doreen won't get to things like that.. haiz.. its so complicated.. hope he doesn't pester peixuan le.. peixuan's gettin irritated so was i.. so.. we did a very extremely bad thing today.. know what we did? i told peixuan to msg him all the vulgarities.. bleah.. i know very bad but his friends started first.. so we did the same thing.. he dun believe peixuan actually scolded those vulgarities.. he thought was me.. well.. i did.. i mean just tell peixuan what she should reply.. so.. he thought was me.. he say what on 12th june i msg him msg until very good.. bleah.. then say what now i like that treat him.. well.. i didn't do the wrong thing anyway.. bleah.. me and peixuan only scolded him alot of vulgarities.. he threaten peixuan that he would do something to himself.. well.. peixuan found him irritating too! muahaha.. so.. zhuo ren hor.. haiyoh.. i dun quite believe peixuan actually scolded quite a number of vulgarities also.. alex told peixuan that he drink beer or whatsoever.. i told peixuan to tell him that he's a flirt.. tell every gal the same thing de.. then he say what believe him again.. well.. i just feel like msging him and scold and just tell him to get off peixuan's back.. he's soo irritating lor.. but too bad i deleted his number le.. since he's not my friend.. well.. i dun need a friend like him.. right? haha.. see.i have become so mean.. nah.. let's not talk about him le lah.. although he have got off my back and i feel so relaxed but.. now nobody msg me leh.. so pathetic hor? haha..today i only got 2 calls.. not even a sms from my friends.. sian hor.. eh.. ppl.. msg me lah.. i got so sian today.. shopping at tm and century with my mum.. bought a op bermudas and a op t-shirt from op.. bleah.. not showing off here.. shop shop shop as we shop we spend money.. today spend alot of money.. believe it? bleah.. whatever.. dun care le.. wah tell u what.. both the shorts and shirt right.. is black leh.. i found it so nice.. bleah.. whatever.. i know some of ur got alot of op thing.. but i dun give a damn.. these are my first op shorts and shirt.. i have got an op pouch and an op towel.. haiz.. i wonder how are all my friends.. i missed them soo much.. bleah.. whatever.. hack care le.. dunno they got miss me mah.. haiz.. hmm.. those who reading this and know my hp number hor.. msg me leh.. i very sian leh.. ok why not i give u my number? how bout that? hmm.. u take from my friend lor.. haiyoh.. i then not so stupid ah.. put hp number in a public blog?? no way!!! bleah.. dun care me.. i'm crazy liao.. crazy until siao le.. hee.. haha.. kk.. i dun wanna type le.. since nobody msg me and talked to me.. so.. i shall go to sleep.. muahaha.. k.. i go to sleep le lah.. talk to u next time k.. bye and take carez.. see ya.. =) blogged @ 9:00 PM hmm.. i know why nowadays weihan never call me le.. well.. that's the thing i just remembered.. muahaha.. =P well.. its becos he went to genting for a holiday.. think so.. ahh.. i soo jealous.. i also wanna go on a holiday!! anyone can treat me or blanjar me? pls.. i very long never go on holiday le.. haiz.. ='( well.. nvm.. maybe its life bah.. that's why i can't go on holiday! =( well.. no money no talk.. =P haha.. hmm.. i just read my da gor gor's blog.. i felt that he really suffered alot in school.. his life is empty.. i mean.. his life do not have many good friends who cared for him.. and that i realised how much he have done and how little he have got in return.. and i didn't know for all this while that he's really sad.. and that all he wanted was just someone to be there for him.. and that's also me.. that's why.. we are siblings.. i didn't appreciate him in the beginning.. as in the beginning, i hate his singing.. but when i read his blogs and his testimonials, i was touched.. truly touched.. now that i realised what wrongs i have done.. i hope that gor, u will be happy.. and that if u are reading this, dun look down on yourself.. everyone is born differently.. i used to hate myself, and that always think that everybody hates me.. but there are ppl who cared.. u may not feel them, but they are always there.. caring for u.. really.. and that low self-confidence really pull u down.. have some confidence in yourself gor.. i may not be a very perfect mei but now that i realised u are a great gor.. although u have not really care about what's happening in the house, like me and xiao gor gor argueing over the computer, quarelling.. but u have never really care.. except for once.. and i got really mad when i dun get to watch tvee.. hope u dun blame me for this.. knowing that in school u are already very tired and come home just to relax by singing songs loudly.. but the sad thing is xiao gor gor is always been scolded by papa and mummy becos of his long hours on the computer and not doing his assignments given.. i know that in ur appearence u may look hack care.. but i know that in ur heart u are xin tong.. and i also know that being the eldest in the family is very tough.. taking care of us when papa and mummy is not in, out to work.. really hope that not only sometimes that we talk to each other about interesting stuffs, but almost everyday.. we haven't been chatting about interesting stuffs for a long long time.. i really missed the days we had.. i really hope u won't look down on yourself and that u will stay happy everyday in ur life.. and that everyday in ur life is meaningful.. i mean u will find it meaningful.. u have come so far liao.. dun give up k.. no matter how tough life is, dun give up k.. take carez gor.. =) smilez forever k.. =) blogged @ 8:58 PM Sunday, June 12, 2005 its such a.. nvm.. hmm.. let me tell u something.. last friday which is 10th june 2005.. at about 8pm.. a guy named alex.. msged me.. saying " hi my name is alex. can i get to know u? " something like that.. so.. of course i dun mind making another friend right? hmm.. the next msg he sent was " what's ur name, ur age, boi or gal? got ex or stead anot " well.. of course his english wasn't this good.. =P so i say " i'm PameLa.. 13 this year.. i'm a gal.. dun have ex, dun have stead.. " i asked him for his age.. he told me that he's 22.. i didn't ask whether he got ex or stead anot.. cos i dun give a damn to whether he got ex or not.. but he just tell me " u 13. i 13+9.. i have 3ex.." i was like.. -.-".. he then msged me and say "ok i tell u.. actually i'm looking for a galfriend but why u so "small"(young)" i forgot what i reply so nvm.. he started to ask me what type of bois i like.. do i mind my boifriend working as security.. bleah.. then i reply "hmm.. he must be nice, kind, filal, dun use violence, dun smoke, must be same age or older than me, most important taller than me.. " muahaha.. i know high standard.. dun care lah.. that's what i told him.. but for the security thing i forgot what i replied.. nvm lah.. then he say "smoke? why cannot smoke? " think he smokes bah.. muahaha.. joking.. joking.. =P so i bluff bluff reply " hmm.. i mean can smoke but cannot in front of me.." well actually i hate ppl who smokes.. oops.. so sorry to ppl who smokes.. so dunno what happen.. but i remember that after afew hours of smsing, he suddenly told me that.. he got feeling on me.. so i say "hmm.. u kidding right? " cos for the previous messages he kept like joking mah.. so i of course dun believe lor.. then he say "no.. i not playing with u.. now not playing.." i was like.. -.-".. dots.. what the.. aiyah dun care lah.. haiz.. he sabo me like hell lor.. hai wo yao 2am cai neng sui.. haiz.. i was so tired lor.. then the next morning, he qi zhao ba zhao msg me say "are u sleeping?" then bo bian have to reply if not he will say " why no reply?" i was so.. haiyoh..then another call from my friend ask me wanna pei her go eat breakfast not.. then also bo bian have to wake up le.. then ok lor.. i go to her house then alex wanted me to call him.. then weiteng, my friend wanted to hear his voice mah.. so i used weiteng's phone and my sim card to call.. cos my phone dun have loud speaker mah.. so i just call lor.. wah lao eh.. his voice hor.. bleah.. like shit sia.. i mean.. he dun even sound singaporean.. he sounded so much like malaysian.. know what he say? he dun believe i dun have steady.. he say what my voice so cute why dun have steady.. then he say what is i dun want or nobody want? then i say nobody want.. cos its true mah.. i mean pls lor.. my voice where got cute.. talk crap only.. then before we put down the phone, i asked him if he is a singaporean.. he said he is a singaporean.. but how could i believe it?? his voice sounded so.. immatual.. muahaha.. see i so bad.. then after that i accompany wei teng go downstairs eat breakfast.. then after everything i go back her house again.. then at her house slack.. watch tvee.. then we hungry again, we went downstairs buy thing to eat again.. then i went back to my home to prepare myself for the bbq on that day.. so weiteng went back to her home lah.. then alex msg me to ask me to believe what he say.. well.. i dun even know what to believe in him.. bleah.. he kept asking me whether i free anot i free anot.. so.. irritating lor.. then same thing i told him again and again and again that i'm not free.. then here comes bbq.. me and my church friends meeting at yew tee mrt control station mah.. going to winson house there to do the bbqing.. bleah.. during the so called felowship, he kept msging me ask me free anot, what time free.. bleah.. i just say the same thing again and again.. bleah.. hack care le.. during the bbq.. i told some of my galfriends of the same age as me about him lor.. then doreen heard the story le, she took my phone and msged him to scold him.. and all the bad words started coming out.. haha.. then pei xuan wanted alex number to see what kinda person he is by smsing him lor.. actually i was supposed to go home.. but belinda, my cousin asked me to stay over at her house.. i said must ask my parents.. i call and she talk to my papa.. then my parents allow me to stay over so i stay over lor.. after the bbq, we clear everything and me, belinda, jane and belinda's friends, terrence and cara walk to mac.. for a chat.. we talk and talk and talk until 9.40 when jane said she have to go.. so she went home.. then we continued to talk.. until 10 something then all of us went home.. i went home with belinda while terrence see cara home.. so say bye bye lor.. then i told belinda everything about wei han and alex.. then she dun let me go meet alex alone.. anyway.. i didn't wanna meet him.. so k lor.. yesterday morning, before me and belinda wake up, another msg from alex.. the same thing again.. " are u sleeping " bleah.. he say what i scared what aiyah forget le lah.. but he kept asking me to believe wht he say.. i dun even know what to believe lor.. haiyoh.. hack care.. yesterday while i was in the mrt going back home alone, pei xuan called and told me that she and alex smsing.. bleah.. then whatever pei xuan told me that alex told her, is the things he said to me.. well i dun care.. cos i dun even like him.. then alex told pei xuan that he wanted to give me up.. i was like so shiok lor.. haha.. if not very stress leh.. then yesterday night i msged winson to tell everything to him.. and said that pei xuan wanted to help me yet got herself into trouble that alex wanna meet her up.. pei xuan agreed to meet him up.. winson asked me if i stopped her from going to meet him.. i said i did.. but pei xuan was stuborn.. she refused to listen.. she's gonna meet alex today.. well.. they already met.. some more pei xuan's alone meeting him.. ahh.. since she's that stubborn.. i shouldn't care.. now alex never msg me le.. he now only msg pei xuan.. well i dun feel anything.. abit sian lah.. cos now wei han never call me le mah.. k lah very long le.. my bro wanna use the com.. see ya again.. =) blogged @ 8:57 PM Wednesday, June 8, 2005 life is so.. i dunno how to describe.. i'm really fed up.. can i not continue this?? can i just stop everything that is happening in my life? can i turn the time?? the sad thing is.. i can't do anything that is totally impossible.. i will not organize anything again.. especially for 6E.. i swear i will never ever organize it again.. not any single thing again.. i'm very fed up.. what for organizing something and nobody turns up?? somemore.. its eric's birthday.. not many ppl could go.. but all i hope is that eric, u will be happy k.. i'm sorry that i'm unable to give u a present tmr.. but i hope u will be happy although not many ppl could turn up for ur birthday.. i just hope u will be as happy.. u're really great.. i really can't find words to describe how great u have been.. eric, if u're reading this, i hope that no matter what happen, we are still best of freinds.. nobody can change that.. or maybe u did not treat me as a best friend but i know that u've been a very great friend to me.. we have came soo far together.. hoping that our friendship will be forever.. and i promise u that i'll not forget u until the day i'm sleeping in the coffin waiting to be cremated.. and until the next life.. i will not forget u.. i will remember u for eternity.. i promise.. hope that u won't forget me.. if u forget me.. nvm.. as long as i'm still alive, u'll always be remembered by me.. i dun say this for fun.. i meant what i say.. really.. although we are in different schools but i hope that all these dun affect our friendship.. really.. think i stop here le.. promise me.. be happy everyday and whatever u do u will be contented.. thanks for being such a great friend.. one more thing.. Happy 13th Birthday!! smilez.. =) best friends forever.. =) take carez.. blogged @ 8:54 PM Tuesday, June 7, 2005 i'm very worn out.. really tired.. i dun wish to continue all this anymore.. being someone who organize this and that for ppl from the previous school i mean from the class.. its soo difficult to get everyone participating in it.. i'm really worn out.. always thought this gathering which i have been looking forward to will be a success.. and also will be a memorable one.. but it seems that its really cold.. nobody seems to care.. what's the use of spending soo much money smsing ppl who dun care?? i dun understand.. did i get anything in return?? i have spent soo much money to tell everyone and tried my best to do i can do.. but do they appreciate it?? my hp bills are very high.. who paid all this?? my mum.. and i'm always lost for words or even feeling guilty.. and why? my bills are so high and all these paid by my mum.. and my parents worked so hard to pay for all these.. they spent alot.. but what did they get in return?? not being appreciated by ppl.. what's the use of spending so much time and money on ppl who simply dun give a hack out of it.. when ppl is working hard to give the best out of it.. they simply dun care.. they think that its VERY cheap to sms and to call.. even using my house phone also cost money k.. nothing in this world is free lor.. u ppl who are reading this, give some comments lah.. i'm really worn out k.. i dun wish to continue this anymore.. with ppl who simply dun care.. ppl simply taking things for granted.. they think that organizing somethin' is such an easy task.. u try it! if u think that its that easy, u try it! u won't know how tiring it is until u really do it yrself!! ppl being stubborn, unwilling to sacrifice.. and ppl like that is just being selfish k.. and why are they being selfish?? they dun care about ppl's feelings k.. giving excuses isn't the way to solve a prob lor.. why do ppl work soo hard to get everyone participating in something?? to do their best out of it, to make the ppl happy.. but do they appreciate it?? i dun think so.. some they do appreciate.. some simply think that its so easy getting everyone together.. its not! stop being selfish.. think of the ones who are hurt, who have tried hard, who is willing to sacrifice their time, money and whatever they can do.. organizing something takes time and money consuming k.. like a party organized by XXX.. he or she have to take care of the food, games and things like that.. not only a party, even a day at the beach or just a day of fun.. takes time and money.. and who's gonna take care of all these?? the organizer.. the organizer is gonna suffer.. just becos of these events.. or even the co-organizer.. think of their feelings k.. its not gonna be easy for them k.. they are the ones who are suffering.. and those who just turn up for these events are enjoying.. some help out.. some just sit there like a log.. not doing anything.. just waiting for ppl to serve them.. its not gonna work.. u won't get to enjoy every day of ur lives.. u will suffer and enjoy.. it's not gonna last.. no happiness and sorrows are gonna last forever.. and u will NOT be YOU forever.. u will change as the time goes by.. dun be too happy lor.. ur joy won't last.. trust me.. one day u will suffer just like the ones suffering now.. and the ones suffering will enjoy one day.. and u'll be the next one to suffer.. be mentally prepared for what u'll have in the future.. for the ones who are gonna suffer in future, u will regret what u have done to ppl around u.. thinking all is urs.. not giving others a chance.. its life.. and God created us to be like that.. He knew what's happening.. He put us in life when everyone's equal.. u suffer now, u enjoy tmr.. u enjoy now, u suffer tmr.. who knows for ppl who are enjoying tmr will be million times happier than before? and for ppl who are suffering tmr may be a million times unhappier than before? God knows.. cos He created our lives.. only He knows what would happen the next minute.. He made our lives equal.. He's not biased.. every sin we commit, is cleansed by His blood on the cross.. He made this noble sacrifice to save us.. so.. appreciate what u have now before its too late.. although there's a "never too late" but there's a limit to everything we do.. dun think that everything is urs.. think of other ppl.. they may be hurt by whatever u did.. everyone is equal.. the greatest sacrifice from ur parents and from God is their love.. ur parents tried to give whatever they could.. they rather they themselves suffering than seeing we children suffer.. we wouldn't know how tired they get after a day of hard work.. they worked so hard just to provide for our needs.. but ppl just took things for granted.. they think that parents working is very easy but they never know.. parents provided the best for us no matter what.. its really tiring.. i just dun understand why there are ppl who are taking things for granted, simply not giving the cooperation.. and not participating to the events organized.. not appreciating the effort the ppl have put in.. its really disappointing.. blogged @ 8:53 PM Sunday, June 5, 2005 well.. since this is the starting year of Girls' Brigade in my school, bnss.. thsi shall be an enjoyable camp bah.. well.. it really is.. there's something u will envy.. muahaha.. we camped at costa sands resort pasir ris.. muahaha..its the first camp after all.. so dun envy!! haha.. hmm.. btw.. there's two groups in the camp.. i mean we gals are seperated into two groups.. group leaders zhili and kim hong.. me in zhili's group which is the honey bees.. and kim hong's group is honey stars.. in zhili's group there are peiting, jing han and me.. in kim hong's group there are huiting, huiyi and huiying.. well.. in zhili's group, we are the specs group and kim hong's group, the non-specs group.. so qiao right?? haha.. well.. jasmine group us this way.. =P haha.. hmm.. during the camp have to do household chores.. i mean duties.. setting up the fire of the bbq, washing the toilet, cooking breakfast and lunch, cleaning the hall.. and things we do at home.. so for the bbq, honey bees which is my group prepare the food, setting up the fire.. but also honey stars give a hand.. although its not their duty, but they do help.. so good hor?? so whatever duties we have, everyone do a part.. so its considered as everyone's duty.. we help one another.. well.. its not really tough.. but still ok lah.. so just get on with it.. then we have some guests.. two officers from BB sir andy and sir edward came along.. and three foreign BB bois.. forgot the name.. whatever.. sir andy helped out with our drills so captain jasmine invited him.. sir edward is my teacher in charge's boifriend.. and our capline(dunno how to spell..) came along too.. so there's quite alot of food.. and this time round, for the bbq, its we gals' turn to prepare all the food.. cos for the last bbq in march, the officers prepared the food.. so its our turn.. for me, i prepared marinated chicken wings, mashmallows for bbqing and cooking chocolates for melting to dip the bbqed mashmallows in it.. zhili prepared sotong which is squids.. peiting prepared prawns.. jing han prepared rock cakes.. =P kimhong prepared dunno what also.. =P huiting prepared spaghetti and bbq flavoured sausages.. huiyi prepared stingray or easier, fish.. huiying prepared dunno what.. forgot le.. =P haha.. so before the bbq at 7pm, we 5pm prepare everything until the bbq.. setting up fire, preparing the food.. so everything is ready by 7pm.. and i ran in ran out fro the guests.. serving them.. the others wasn't relaxing also.. cos some were helping out with the bbq.. some cutting fruits for everyone.. so me, halfway do this halfway do that.. but i enjoyed it lots.. doing some sort of exercise.. =) after the bbq and everything, we clear everything, go to bath and have our evening worship.. well.. its already about 10.45 at night.. so we are spilt up into groups to do our worship.. lisha and grace lead me for the worship.. so i just follow them lor.. haha.. then after the worship, we come back to the chalet.. then at about 1 something, time for sleeping.. actually is 11.30 lights out but everything was delayed.. that's why so late le then sleep.. me, huiyi, peiting and huiying talking away.. as we can't getta sleep.. we talk talk talk until hwee leng came down to sleep with us to take care of us.. cos they heard lotsa noises from downstairs so hwee leng decided to come down sleep with us for the night.. so at the time she came down, we have to sleep le mah.. so we just sleep lor.. then the next morning we all have to wake up at 7am.. but most of us woke up extremely early.. cos can no longer getta sleep.. saw peijun leaving the chalet at 5.40am.. as she needa work so she have to leave the chalet.. well.. she left secretly.. hwee leng saw her out.. and she left.. then i waited for everyone to wake up.. and i'm really bored.. aiyah.. just hack care lor.. then finally some of them wake up le.. then some of us began going to brush our teeth, wash our face.. then we do morning programme... i mean start the day with a prayer.. then we all do some singing with actions.. then time for breakfast.. its the honey stars' turn to prepare breakfast.. we help out too.. alot to eat for breakfast.. after breakfast, we go for our morning worship.. actually peiting with peijun de.. but becos peijun left early, peiting joined me, grace and lisha.. wah.. we go so shiok sia.. we went upstairs to do our worship.. cos got air con.. shiok hor.. =) then after the worship, we went for games at the beach.. play until we all so dirty.. then its lunch time.. its honey bees' turn to prepare lunch.. so me and zhili went to prepare lunch.. i mean cook for them.. after lunch, we went to have another round of bath cos we are really dirty.. after bath, we clear everything lah.. then we got ban jiang dian li.. prize giving.. we all got things to bring home.. and a souvenier from the officers.. yeah.. then we all go home.. wah its a really nice camp.. yeah.. gtg le.. my bro wanna use the com le.. so.. bye and take carez.. blogged @ 9:55 PM